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eighteen. hopeless romantic. college. loves pink. sleep deprived. 

Friday, October 13, 2017

you read that right. I'm not kidding.

yup this will be an interesting post. please grab popcorn.

it all began when my friends Emily and Nita kept discussing about a part time job that they acquired somewhere. I was pretty surprised because all the jobs postings that I've seen around needed my CV. Online application requires my UK insurance number as well. Which I have to contact the department to ask for my insurance number and I've called up for a few times in different days and still couldn't contact to the department.

Thus out of curiosity, I asked them where are they working. They were kind enough to tell me they're working in Ichi Noodles. I further asked them is the vacancy still open. They said they're not sure. So one day after class, I told them I needed to go town to pick up something but really the first thing I went was Ichi Noodles to ask for the job. They asked me to leave down my contact details and the manager will contact me by that night itself. After dropping my details, I went on further to look for vacancies everywhere. As usuals, I jot down their contact details so that I could email them my CV.

That night itself, I did not receive the call from the manager. I thought they wouldn't want to hire any more part timers. So bad luck to me I guess. But I could email my CV to other postings.

On a Tuesday night. I went out together with Emily and a new friend Celine to attend dance society welcome talk. It is 20mins walk away from where we stay. After the welcome talk, we were hanging out at chatime before movie starts at 8. To my realisation Celine has been working quite a while in Ichi Noodles. I did not ask her further about her work because I did not get the job anyway. Who knows, when I was at chatime. I received a text msg from Ichi Noodles manager asking me if I could come for work on Thursday. Ofc I'd be glad to! He further asked me when on the week I'm available for shifts and he arranged a schedule for me. After the movie has ended, I told Emily and Celine that I got msg from the manager saying I could go for work on Thursday. I was actually quite happy that I got the job; and I'm working with my friends. However, their faces didn't look quite happy for me.

That day, was the whole boycott started. Nita, known for being the nicest girl on earth. She greets me every morning. Ask me to be careful when I walk alone etc. She's definitely the most decent girl you can find. She ignored me. She even pretended that she didn't hear me. I was thinking what had happened that she just turned 180 degree on me.

On Thursday when I started my shift, the manager guided me and stuffs. (The whole working experience I'll post it next time). It was definitely a really tough job at first. After peak lunch hours, the manager, his name is Sean, told me that actually my friends Emily and Nita were supposed to be on the shift. There were a lot of questions running in my head. Because first of all, I never mention to him that I'm friends of Emily and Nita. And I barely know Celine on Tuesday, so it was impossible for Sean to know that I'm friends with either of them. He told me that because 3 of us share the same free shifts. So there's no point for him to hire another 2 of my friends. My face was neutral but you guys didn't know how much my heart sank when I heard that.

It basically means that, I took over their jobs. They were kind enough to tell me where were they working. I applied it last and Sean decided to take me in instead. It is all so clear now why they all start to hate me.

But there were still questions running in my head. Because before Emily and Nita started working, they were confirmed employees. so why in the end, I was hired instead? The next day on my shift, I saw the duty rooster written by Sean. Emily and Nita were scheduled to work on shifts on the days that we have classes as well as on days we do not have classes. Why would they tell Sean that they can work on days that we've classes when we clearly couldn't make it? And obviously they did not show up for the shifts.

After few days of investigating. Emily and Nita have been asking to cancel the shifts last minute to attend fresher meetings when the duty rooster has been planned a week before. Sean felt that they're not serious into such obligation thus only texted me on Tuesday night if I could work on Thursday.

And also a week of god knows how much tears I cried when my friends start to distant me, I just realised it's because of this part time job. A part of me feels very bad that I should've told them I applied the job as well. A part of me feels that they should have treasured the opportunity given to them but they didn't.

Because of this, they've always been going out without me with the new friends they met. Tho I'm quite occupied with frisbee trainings and work, they do not personally invite me out anymore (out of courtesy or anything) because Nita wouldn't want me to be there anyway. I was quite down for it but on the hand, I do not have so much to keep going out anyway.

Im still cool with other people besides Nita. She does not want to talk to me at all despite living together. After a week of depression, I've decided to move on. I sent her an apology text and also told her that I'd resign if she wants her shift back but she decided to leave me on blue ticks. I'm exhausted of being depress about this. I went on living my own life alone, attend trainings, go for socials etc.

I'm indeed upset that because of the work, Ive been missing out a lot of outings with them. My relationship with them are now very distant. I felt very very bad at first but now I just can't feel anything anymore.

Friends come and go. I can't force you to still be friend with me if you don't like me at all. I'm really tired of entertaining everyone.

Nevertheless, I'm always grateful that I was given all the opportunities to be here. I also want to thank my friends who have been coping with this depression these 2 weeks. Guess it's time to look for new friends around.

I guess that's it. They're now out without me as usual. So I'm just gonna head to bed because I've a shift tmrw. hope to post soon. x

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